Marya Hornbacker ~ MADNESS

When madness had me in it's teeth and thrashed me back and forth, I didn't know what the real things were, or how to do them, or what they were for. Now I know: they keep the madness at bay.

First day of therapy..

It went well.

She is very nice. The room was comfortable and felt very much like a childs playroom. Apparently she sees families, too.

I wasn't sure how it was suppose to go..but she had me talking about my parents rather quickly. Probably because she was looking over my family history. She noticed that I have a tendency to "zone out". Sometimes when my ideas start going in my head, they don't stop...I have to really concentrate so I don't interupt the person I'm talking with. It came across to her as a zoning out. Good to note. I almost cried when she said that the ups and downs of bipolar I will have my whole life. I was so hoping that the drugs would make them go away...no such luck! It will be an every day surrender. She also encouraged me to excersize when I start to unravel emotionally. Hop on the treadmill and run...take a bike ride..what ever I can do to stay safe and let off some steam.

After therapy, I headed over to the park to sit with Larie and Kim. I got some sunshine, in fact burned a bit. Always nice to have time for recharging myself. Both of them inspire me to be a better mom and wife and friend. Larie is so good at making friends and making them feel special. She is constantly pulling people together..it is her gift. I appreciate her so much.

After the park I was able to fill a Wal-mart shopping cart to the brim for 78.oo. Proud of myself! We even get corn on the cob! :) The boys are downstairs watching Transformers with Daddy. I should go snuggle with him.

Tomorrow we head to a park in Oregon to meet up with John and Sonia for the day. Looking forward to seeing the cousins..the kids can't wait.

Signing off..