It went well.
She is very nice. The room was comfortable and felt very much like a childs playroom. Apparently she sees families, too.
I wasn't sure how it was suppose to go..but she had me talking about my parents rather quickly. Probably because she was looking over my family history. She noticed that I have a tendency to "zone out". Sometimes when my ideas start going in my head, they don't stop...I have to really concentrate so I don't interupt the person I'm talking with. It came across to her as a zoning out. Good to note. I almost cried when she said that the ups and downs of bipolar I will have my whole life. I was so hoping that the drugs would make them go away...no such luck! It will be an every day surrender. She also encouraged me to excersize when I start to unravel emotionally. Hop on the treadmill and run...take a bike ride..what ever I can do to stay safe and let off some steam.
After therapy, I headed over to the park to sit with Larie and Kim. I got some sunshine, in fact burned a bit. Always nice to have time for recharging myself. Both of them inspire me to be a better mom and wife and friend. Larie is so good at making friends and making them feel special. She is constantly pulling people together..it is her gift. I appreciate her so much.
After the park I was able to fill a Wal-mart shopping cart to the brim for 78.oo. Proud of myself! We even get corn on the cob! :) The boys are downstairs watching Transformers with Daddy. I should go snuggle with him.
Tomorrow we head to a park in Oregon to meet up with John and Sonia for the day. Looking forward to seeing the cousins..the kids can't wait.
Signing off..
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2 years ago
Hey friend,
ReplyDeleteI know that God has you on your own special journey but after reading this post I wanted to share with you part of mine.
When I was diagnosed with anxiety dissorder, and depression the doc told me I had had it all my life, and would need medication for the rest of my life. I began to cry .
After lots and lots of counseling, prayer and reaching out for support, I was able to stop taking medication and have been off for a few years now. I do still struggle and feel myself falling into the abyss from time to time,but with the help of my Lord and people that have been walking this out with me for years, most of the time I am ok.
Like I said God has a different journey for all of us, so maybe the shrink is correct, and you will have the ups and downs all the time.
But you are still in His hands, SO in His hands!
My experience of " the abyss" was the closest thing to mental torture, or hell I can think of. I know no better way to describe it.
And I feel that my experience is only a glimps of what you must go through with such high highs and low lows. It breaks my heart to see anyone going through that,especally such a dear friend. My prayer for you is the same prayer that has saved my life. I pray for the peace that suprpasses all understanding.
When I used to hear people say that " peace" I thought it ment lack of conflict. I have learned no, it is peace in the midst of conflict. For us, conflict in ourselvs as well as our lives.
BLESSINGS!!!
Wow you are such a sweet friend! I'm so blessed the Lord has brought you into my life and we can walk the road together...as I'm becoming stable, my prayer is to be there for you as you've been here for me...love you so much!
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